New

Yesterday.
Started well.
Had a good time with Rachael.
Then it all hit me.
Hard.
Again.
Cried in front of a friend.
I hate that.
Came home.

After a bit felt much better.
Talking helped.
Not about any of it.
But other stuff.
Got my mind off of it.
Actually felt happy.
Got ice cream with my mom.
Weird.
If you know me.
And my hate for ice cream.

Today seems good.
Got a second interview.
Thursday.
Going to see a movie.
Rio.
Looks funny.

Today feels good.
Today feels new.
Today.
I hate to go into a stupid Smashing Pumpkins song.
Especially since I don't really like them.
But Today feels right.

"Today is the greatest
Day I’ve ever kown
Can't live for tomorrow
Tomorrow’s much too long"

And for today thats all I want.
For today to be good.
One day where I don't cry.
One day where I feel great.