What to do.
What to do.
Talked for an hour about her girl troubles.
Sucked,
He wants whatever.
She wants later.
I'm in the middle having a good time.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Growing.
Had a great night.
Had a great talk.
Realized a lot of things I've thought about but was never able to form into words before.
Feeling fantastic as I sit here thinking about it.
It's weird I even feel like I can breath better.
Had a great talk.
Realized a lot of things I've thought about but was never able to form into words before.
Feeling fantastic as I sit here thinking about it.
It's weird I even feel like I can breath better.
Friday, July 15, 2011
Glue.
I've finally started reading Fall to Grace by Jay Bakker.
And found a quote I really liked.
"Man is born broken.
He lives by mending.
The grace of God is glue."
~ Eugene O'Neill.
And found a quote I really liked.
"Man is born broken.
He lives by mending.
The grace of God is glue."
~ Eugene O'Neill.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Hmm.
Had a good day today.
Even after waking up feeling like shit.
Spent all of it with different friends,
Laughed a lot.
Had a good time with them all.
Why do I still feel so crappy?
I don't even want to go to sleep tonight, I know I'm going to have another bad dream.
And that will just make tomorrow shitty too.
Just one of those things I guess.
Kind of makes me feel like this.
Even after waking up feeling like shit.
Spent all of it with different friends,
Laughed a lot.
Had a good time with them all.
Why do I still feel so crappy?
I don't even want to go to sleep tonight, I know I'm going to have another bad dream.
And that will just make tomorrow shitty too.
Just one of those things I guess.
Kind of makes me feel like this.
Falling.
Nightmares are starting again.
They scare me something awful.
I wake up all night and just fall asleep in the same place I woke up.
I hate this.
I can't shake them.
I wake up feeling sick and crappy.
Even though I'm fine.
Migraines come more regularly with the nightmares.
I have to go back to sleeping with my overhead light on.
I woke up around 3 last night terrified.
All I wanted was some rest.
I'm so tired all the time anymore.
I just can't get any real sleep.
They scare me something awful.
I wake up all night and just fall asleep in the same place I woke up.
I hate this.
I can't shake them.
I wake up feeling sick and crappy.
Even though I'm fine.
Migraines come more regularly with the nightmares.
I have to go back to sleeping with my overhead light on.
I woke up around 3 last night terrified.
All I wanted was some rest.
I'm so tired all the time anymore.
I just can't get any real sleep.
Friday, July 8, 2011
62.What is the best method of travel, and in what ways have you traveled?
I like trains,
They are so relaxing.
Something about the constant feel of the tracks below.
Watching the world pass me by so fast through the window.
I've traveled different places many different ways.
Plane.
Train.
Car.
Helicopter.
Boat.
Truck.
Cars scare me the most.
They are so relaxing.
Something about the constant feel of the tracks below.
Watching the world pass me by so fast through the window.
I've traveled different places many different ways.
Plane.
Train.
Car.
Helicopter.
Boat.
Truck.
Cars scare me the most.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
61.List 3 things that went right (or wrong) today.
I don't think anything really went wrong so I'll go with right.
I actually got up early enough to clean my bathroom and all the stuff I needed to get done.
Got the cats all fed and litter box cleaned for the day.
I wasn't sure I'd actually get up with my alarm but did. :).
Even got my laundry done.
Went to work for nine hours and trained more.
Love the new job.
That's really all I did today.
Lol.
I guess that's a good thing I did get a lot done and learned a lot.
There was one bad thing.
Poor little Steve passed away while I was at work.
He was a good little kitten just could get all the nutrition he needed.
He was started to nurse on Salem just yesterday but not soon enough.
I actually got up early enough to clean my bathroom and all the stuff I needed to get done.
Got the cats all fed and litter box cleaned for the day.
I wasn't sure I'd actually get up with my alarm but did. :).
Even got my laundry done.
Went to work for nine hours and trained more.
Love the new job.
That's really all I did today.
Lol.
I guess that's a good thing I did get a lot done and learned a lot.
There was one bad thing.
Poor little Steve passed away while I was at work.
He was a good little kitten just could get all the nutrition he needed.
He was started to nurse on Salem just yesterday but not soon enough.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
60.Where is a great place to get breakfast?
I enjoy a few places for breakfast.
Ihop and cracker barrel are probably my favorite.
Ihop more so.
I can eat breakfast there anytime.
Breakfast anytime anywhere is actually pretty great.
That is more than likely just my favorite
Ihop and cracker barrel are probably my favorite.
Ihop more so.
I can eat breakfast there anytime.
Breakfast anytime anywhere is actually pretty great.
That is more than likely just my favorite
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
59.Does Never Never Land really exist?
I've always believed it has.
After seeing the orphanage I don't doubt it for a second.
Such a beautiful/suspenseful movie.
I never even came close to guessing the end but cried as soon as I realized how amazing it was.
How fantastic would it be to have the innocence of being a child again?
To have the opportunity to never grow up.
Obviously not the way the kids did in the orphanage but in actual peter pan.
Fantastic.
Never feel the pain of growing up, heartache, loss,
Even if I was ever to go I'd still want to grow up at some point.
Kind of a "nice place to visit place" for me.
It'd have been nice to prolong childhood but to miss out on so much would be horrible.
After seeing the orphanage I don't doubt it for a second.
Such a beautiful/suspenseful movie.
I never even came close to guessing the end but cried as soon as I realized how amazing it was.
How fantastic would it be to have the innocence of being a child again?
To have the opportunity to never grow up.
Obviously not the way the kids did in the orphanage but in actual peter pan.
Fantastic.
Never feel the pain of growing up, heartache, loss,
Even if I was ever to go I'd still want to grow up at some point.
Kind of a "nice place to visit place" for me.
It'd have been nice to prolong childhood but to miss out on so much would be horrible.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Lined.
I walk a path lined with fireflies.
I see only in front of me.
The past long forgotten.
Walking free.
The past not destroying me.
I walk a path lined in fireflies.
The moon high above.
Leading me to my destiny.
Not living a fairy tale.
Leading me to my dreams.
I walk a path lined in fireflies.
Calmly but cautiously.
Not running scared.
Stronger than ever.
Not looking back.
I see only in front of me.
The past long forgotten.
Walking free.
The past not destroying me.
I walk a path lined in fireflies.
The moon high above.
Leading me to my destiny.
Not living a fairy tale.
Leading me to my dreams.
I walk a path lined in fireflies.
Calmly but cautiously.
Not running scared.
Stronger than ever.
Not looking back.
57.Have you ever carved your name or initials into a tree or stone?
I have, in the woods across/down the street from my dads.
I can't remember if it was KJM or KJJ.
I remember having my go cart but think I still carved KJM.
I used to go hang out in the woods all the time.
It always smelled like caterpillars.
I'm pretty sure this is why the smell of caterpillars tells me it is summer.
My sister has the same thing, when you can smell the caterpillars it's summer.
Lol.
There were always just thousands of cocoons.
It was a fantastic place to be.
Just me and a book a lot of the time.
Sometimes my neighbor would hang out there with me.
Or other friends.
Not often though.
It was a nice quiet place to be.
I can't remember if it was KJM or KJJ.
I remember having my go cart but think I still carved KJM.
I used to go hang out in the woods all the time.
It always smelled like caterpillars.
I'm pretty sure this is why the smell of caterpillars tells me it is summer.
My sister has the same thing, when you can smell the caterpillars it's summer.
Lol.
There were always just thousands of cocoons.
It was a fantastic place to be.
Just me and a book a lot of the time.
Sometimes my neighbor would hang out there with me.
Or other friends.
Not often though.
It was a nice quiet place to be.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
30 Randoms of me.
1. I am a huge fan of football movies but have never actually watched the sport, something that will change next season.
2. I will watch any cop/csi/fbi show that comes on tv anytime, my favorite is Law & Order: SVU and (this is new to me) CSI.
3.I have a scar on my right eyebrow from my cat Lisa.
4. My cats Cadee and Miles are the most important thing to me at this point in my life.
5. I'm kind of ashamed of how I lost the first 60 lbs this year but now that I've lost another 15 a healthy way, I'm proud.
6. He makes me smile more than I have in awhile.
7. I was scared for my own safety from myself earlier this year.
8. I've not told anyone that.
9. My favorite movie is Stand By Me, I used to have every line memorized.
10. I still have every line of The Craft memorized.
11. I have seen Green Day live about 13 times and will keep going as long as they keep touring.
12. I love musicals!
13. I'd love to fully learn Russian, I've been teaching myself online but would like to take real lessons one day.
14. I can't wait til I'm in a place where I can travel.
15. I miss my Papa. I wish he was here with me for everything, my favorite time was to just sit with him and watch tv.
16. I love working, I hated not working for 3 months.
17. I cherish my friends, those I actually see and those online equally.
18. Because of B I'm enjoying the fruits I can actually eat so much more than I ever have.
19. I love to read and carry a purse mostly because I need to have a book with me always.
20. I would love to go back to school for photography but the chances of me actually doing that are slim o none.
21. I love my family and wouldn't trade any of them for anything. Even when they drive me nuts. (extended family included.)
22. I love cake, pretty much any kind any time.
23. I'd like to get married again someday...I think.
24. I spend far too much time on facebook and cant wait to start working full-time so I'm not on as often.
25. I am a Detroit Red Wings fan, which doesn't go over well being in the Chicago area.
26. My favorite cartoon when I was little was Smurfs, I cannot wait for the live action movie to come out.
27. I can't wait for the last Harry Potter movie,
28. I love True blood, it's like vampire porn.
29. I think Christian Bale is just fantastic in everything he does.
30. I've had horrid insomnia all my life and have just recently had a few nights where I don't wake up all night or where I'm not waking up with bruises from myself while I dream.
2. I will watch any cop/csi/fbi show that comes on tv anytime, my favorite is Law & Order: SVU and (this is new to me) CSI.
3.I have a scar on my right eyebrow from my cat Lisa.
4. My cats Cadee and Miles are the most important thing to me at this point in my life.
5. I'm kind of ashamed of how I lost the first 60 lbs this year but now that I've lost another 15 a healthy way, I'm proud.
6. He makes me smile more than I have in awhile.
7. I was scared for my own safety from myself earlier this year.
8. I've not told anyone that.
9. My favorite movie is Stand By Me, I used to have every line memorized.
10. I still have every line of The Craft memorized.
11. I have seen Green Day live about 13 times and will keep going as long as they keep touring.
12. I love musicals!
13. I'd love to fully learn Russian, I've been teaching myself online but would like to take real lessons one day.
14. I can't wait til I'm in a place where I can travel.
15. I miss my Papa. I wish he was here with me for everything, my favorite time was to just sit with him and watch tv.
16. I love working, I hated not working for 3 months.
17. I cherish my friends, those I actually see and those online equally.
18. Because of B I'm enjoying the fruits I can actually eat so much more than I ever have.
19. I love to read and carry a purse mostly because I need to have a book with me always.
20. I would love to go back to school for photography but the chances of me actually doing that are slim o none.
21. I love my family and wouldn't trade any of them for anything. Even when they drive me nuts. (extended family included.)
22. I love cake, pretty much any kind any time.
23. I'd like to get married again someday...I think.
24. I spend far too much time on facebook and cant wait to start working full-time so I'm not on as often.
25. I am a Detroit Red Wings fan, which doesn't go over well being in the Chicago area.
26. My favorite cartoon when I was little was Smurfs, I cannot wait for the live action movie to come out.
27. I can't wait for the last Harry Potter movie,
28. I love True blood, it's like vampire porn.
29. I think Christian Bale is just fantastic in everything he does.
30. I've had horrid insomnia all my life and have just recently had a few nights where I don't wake up all night or where I'm not waking up with bruises from myself while I dream.
56.What 5 traits do people first notice when they meet you for the first time?
I'm not really sure.
I guess that I'm tall, people always think I'm taller than I actually am.
I like to think my eyes since they are my favorite.
Lol.
They just get so green most of the time, I love it.
Other than that I have no idea.
I get quiet when I first people.
So, yep fairly boring me.
I guess that I'm tall, people always think I'm taller than I actually am.
I like to think my eyes since they are my favorite.
Lol.
They just get so green most of the time, I love it.
Other than that I have no idea.
I get quiet when I first people.
So, yep fairly boring me.
Concerts.
Kid Rock in August?
Social Distortion in October?
Hell yes I will be there!
I've only heard how amazing Social D is live and cannot wait to experience it for myself.
Social Distortion in October?
Hell yes I will be there!
I've only heard how amazing Social D is live and cannot wait to experience it for myself.
Friday, July 1, 2011
55.What did you learn today? What did you learn yesterday?
So far today I've mainly just confirmed I love my friends, old and new.
That the farmers market is fantastic.
Hanging with said friends will always be the best time.
Even when we try to "borrow" the big pear from Crispy Waffle.
Yesterday, I learned I got the new better job.
That I am closer to my car and moving out.
That I once again fit in a size 14!
First time in years.
It feels so awesome.
I've really learned so much recently.
I've come so far from how depressed I was.
I really thought I was never going to feel even remotely good again.
And here I am, I still have a long way to go to feel, I'm assuming, great.
That the farmers market is fantastic.
Hanging with said friends will always be the best time.
Even when we try to "borrow" the big pear from Crispy Waffle.
Yesterday, I learned I got the new better job.
That I am closer to my car and moving out.
That I once again fit in a size 14!
First time in years.
It feels so awesome.
I've really learned so much recently.
I've come so far from how depressed I was.
I really thought I was never going to feel even remotely good again.
And here I am, I still have a long way to go to feel, I'm assuming, great.
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